"Prostate cancer has many paths it travels as it ravages a man internally. There are a range of treatments that may be thrown at (in!?) me and each one is chosen considering both my reactions to previous treatment and of course, where it has spread to next."
"As of now, my current 'cocktail' of drugs (abiraterone, predisnolone, gosereline, zoledronic acid and calcium tablets) is keeping me standing still. That is, they are keeping me from going backwards despite my insidious passenger so, in this case, standing still is essentially making progress -although it is really difficult to process it like that.
"When they start to fail (and all the conversations with medical professionals do have the 'when' and not 'if' nature to them) it will be about discovering where the cancer has jumped to. It's already jumped to areas around my lymphatic systems in my body and the next places could be any of one or more of my bones, bladder, bowel, liver, kidney, lungs or brain, to mention just a few.
"So it's about getting through every month."
"There are things I would love to see and do in my life. I can't regret in advance of not doing them but it leaves me sad thinking that I might not make it to some of them."
"I would love to see or have many more family birthdays, Christmases, graduations, exam successes, family holidays, wedding anniversaries, complete more races, football seasons to name but a few and if by some miracle I beat the odds and averages I may see many of those! And then I can dream about family weddings and being a granddad, although, sadly, I know that they are both unrealistic but, hey, I can dream!"